I am against raising awareness.
Awareness is objectifying and distancing. Awareness is only a doorway. It demands nothing of you and is completely noncommital. You are free to stay on your side of the door and that is distance. You are free to walk away with indifference, disgust or outright denial. And you do it. Every day we all do it. Reflect on that karmic burden, and then ….
Walk through the door. Attend the event of what is happening not just to you but to the other, whether rock or mouse or man.
PAY attention. Its all there, isn’t it? paying attention requires you give up something. To whom do you make the payment? Let that question sit for a moment. In some sense you give it to the other, whether it is an object, a creation, or a being – and really, what isn’t all three? What rock doesn’t have the covering of life on it? What isn’t worth something from you, since you are nothing without it?
You pay to get into the game, and once you are there you aren’t just a spectator. The very act of attending makes you part of the game. And you wind up more rather than less. How is that?
You depend on everything you see that is beautiful, everything you hear that is annoying and everything you smell that revolts you. Those are you as much as your last brilliant artstic impulse and your next fart. All these things are indeed boundless fields.
Thats it really. Just pay attention. It is an act of love. When you pay attention you are there to become the work that must be done and you are that work with the other. Tilll the soil, hold the hand, sing the song.
Here is the last – pay attention to yourself as much as the other. Your self will call you when it needs you and you must pay attention to that too. Riddle me that accounting – where does the love, the ability to pay attention to yourself, from where does that emerge? Who are you paying then? That is emotional cold fusion my friend. Find the stillness or the noise and try it. See what energy emerges.
Pay attention.
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